The last waltz

Yes, it's about music again.

I've always loved waltzes, they're awesome and easy to dance, moreover they got nice names like "Waltz for the moon" , "The Last Waltz" and some more... When I listen to them a trigger in my head begins to work: it makes me think about lots of things; the beauty, the past, the future, the complexity of life (yes, sure you've already noticed I'm an hypersensitive person with these things)
and melancholy slaps me in the face with great strength. I don't understand about music at all, but I like waltzes (not just the one, two three one,two, three..)

The first time I listened to one was in Final Fantasy 8 (it was the waltz for the moon, I think...). I played it almost 9 years ago and I still can remember the melody and the video which accompanied the music. It was about time that another of those melodies came to my brain and make my thoughts and my wishes dance mad.

Telling you the truth, I've always thought that life is like a grand scenario and we are the dancers in it, moving through the floor, letting the rhythm invade our bodies but not letting it tame us. Life is a great waltz, the first and last waltz of our lives; we have to dance, if we stop we die, but it doesn't really matter because someday, somehow we will have to stop; our ears will not listen again to that sweet melody and we will fall in oblivion. Awful, I know , but reality has always been so.

In that scenario, I'm still seeking my dance couple. I don't know when I'll find her, but I'm sure I will, and then I will be able to close my eyes, hold her hands and dance mad for the rest of my insignificant life. Oh... I had to talk about the song, yes... Sorry about that.

Well, I met that song 1 year and half ago in the film "Old Boy", a Korean movie about vengeance of Park Chan-Wook (one of my favorite directors) Someday I will talk about cinema and directors, but today the starring star is the waltz, so let him begin the scene. Since the first scene the music is stunning ( can I use that adjective with music...?) and scene over scene it gets better but when u get to the end of the movie...oh my god (the trigger, the trigger) a really cute and orgasmic song pops up (and the scene it choses to do it is incredible, made me cry u_u) Yoy have to feel this feeling to know that you're alive, it is...it is...terrific, really.

While writing this I'm listening to that sin of song, guess it inspires me. I found the song but I'd prefer you all to download the film and watch it, really worths it. But well, for those who have already seen the film (or those who haven't, don't mind) here you have a piece of heaven.

The Last Waltz

That's all, I'll see you in the waltz room...

What the ...

What the hell is going on?

Three days ago I was on a friend's birthday (we will call him Mr.K) and well, the day before his birthday I had ... another birthday (Mr. J's) There are problems between them and that's why the celebrations were made in different days (obviously, isn't it?) but well, I don't wanna mess around with that fact right now. Last year something worst happened: they decided to celebrate their birthday the same day but in different places.... So I HAD to chose (EPIC FAIL) and then lots of misunderstandings and evil things happened

But this year, they finally arrived to an accord; Mr.J chose 25th and Mr.K 26th.
Mr. J's birthday was very nice (well...I ended the night in a bad mood and crying , wishing to kill myself lol) I didn't rest a bit, instead of that i got kinda drunk and so 10 am arrived, and I didn't feel like going to another birthday to do exactly the same so I made my mind up and decided not to go to Mr.K's birthday but what I didn't know is that, far from my wishes of sleeping all the day and night, I'd ended going to such birthday.

You will be (as always) asking the purpose of the title, ok, here it goes: The night of July 26th (It was really 27 th but nevermind) with the hangover of the last night, I got even more drunk than on Mr.J's birthday, and so, when we came back to Mr.K's house (here here here it goes!!!) I got naked and headed into K's pool :D

Now I got a sweet pneumonia, creepy, isn't it?

A pool at 5 am , great , isn't it?

So be careful about what you wish, and...wait, that's not the idiom ... ehm..
Oh yes, do not head into pools at 5am or u will end with a sweet pneumonia as your best friend.
What the hell is going on on this bloody world... tsk.

Take care of urselves and don't forget acting hypocritical!

P.S. As you see, my mood is changing again... maybe i'm a weirdo.. who knows.

Watchers in the Sky

That's the title of the best song of Heterogenic Thought Fiction.
It's odd how a song made by a band which is not famous (they're friends from Valencia) is able to get so deep inside your soul, your mind and , well , yur senses. If my dreoams take shape, they'd have that name " Watcher in the Sky"

I've been listening to it for days, and I never get tired.... it's like magic. When I listen to that song everything disappears and suddenly I'm drifting in the sky, looking up the stars and feeling empty, feeling hollow... it's kinda freaky but it feels nice, warm. I'm waiting for something but I still don't know what it is.
Love? Maybe, but well, I don't care about it right now, I've been through many problems because of it. Yes, I'd like to feel it again, to sense that warmth within you but right now I'm not able to understand the whole thing, so let's keep way from it ! (Furthermore, that's one of the reasons why I'm here)

My life's been always linked to words like dreamer, ephemeral, sky, stars all that stuff. I know, you can call me whatever you want, but when I think of those words it's like the whole world turned around. I think I have some kind of relationship (call it love, call it friendship or connection) with them.
But coming back to the watcher in the sky, every time I think about it I feel lonely; yes , I can evade from the world listening to it, but loneliness frightens me more than this shameless world of us. I suppose you've already felt this way, and I'm sure you agree that it's not nice.

When the world ends, I'd like to remain here, in order to behold how things go on, with that only purpose. I'm not talking about being alive, just be conscious of the millions of things that happen all around us, on "our" galaxy, on the universe... It would be fantastic, yeah.



Well, I think it's enough for today, I cannot even look at the screen. It'll be better for me to go to rest a little. And as always take care of yourselves little shameless hypocrites ;D


P.S. By the way, u'll have to excuse me for the last post... I couldn't even think clearly. Guess I'd have to put order to my thoughts before writing them down here. And one more thing, my mood is very changeable, u'll see from now on.

Hypocrisy Hangover

** I know the post is not structured, it's just that I'm not OK and my thoughts are here and there.. so sorry.

Hi there readers.

I wonder if anyone's gonna read this...
Nevermind, I'll be able to pour my thoughts here at least, and that's enough for me. You'd be asking "Why the hell Hypocritical Lives?" I can tell u for sure it has a purpose, which? I still don't know. I really needed to write my thoughts down somewhere and I thought a blog will be the best way to do it.

The best answer I can give u right now is this one : "I'm tired of people who pretend to be your friend, who make u hope up and then stab u in the back" but thats only the external answer... I'm feeling rage and hatred when I write this, it's not good, I know but I cannot wait anymore.

I hope u don't think I'm an emokid or something like that, those lil' pieces of shit make me feel sick, but I feel even sicker when I act like them... the main problem is that sometimes I know I'm just pretending to be someone who I'm not and pff... it's like swimming in a see of despair cause u know the problem but u can't or don't want to do anything to solve it.

But let's keep away from this thoughts, I'm here to bring you some of my deepest and dark thoughts about what u could call "things". Yes.

I almost forgot to tell u that I'm not english native, so forgive my mistakes and all that stuff. I'm doing an effort to make this blog readable all over the world, so I hope u're merciful with me ;D

Yesterday I was drunk of hypocrisy, today I have to go through the hangover but tomorrow... I can't tell myself about it.

Just let me you (and myself) remember that everybody loves hypocrites; we born blinded by our own desires, we don't want to see beyond our lives , and that, my friends it's the worst thing mankind will ever do. We will always be sinners, we will carry a burden with the word "Selfish" written on it. May be we deserver it----

Please wake up and see with your own eyes what I'm trying to tell you.
You and me will possibly be the wors hypocrites in the earth, but don't let it take you dow. bcause it's just u and ur will who'll change it.

Sorry if I'm not clear.

Take care of urselves

The shameless hypocrite.