Day after day I feel I'm growing old and when it comes to my mind I just freeze. Scares me. I'm quite afraid of time, afraid of not being able to do or to say all the things that I haven't even thought but what frightens me the most is the fact that I can't do ANYthing to avoid or solve it.
I didn't mean to sound neither negative nor pessimistic. I just realized how fucking nasty is growing old is. I know it's inevitable to fight against it or even think about but yesterday was my 19th birthday and I felt so depressed. One more year and the 2 will heavily kick my ass. Pitiful. In 10 years I'll be 29, that WILL be horrible.
As I already said, let's keep the pessimistic feeling away from here. I should be happy,no, I MUST be happy. This is my special day and it'll be over in 53 minutes. Just 24 hours of happiness (well, not always) I think it's not fair but it's not me who have the power to chose.
I wanted to warn you all (not really, just the ones younger than me) don't get nervous, don't even think about your age, just enjoy the moment. Yes, it's a topic, but it's a nice topic isn't it? Stay away from bad feelings and the worst thing could ever happen to you is realizing that u can do SHIT to stop it (the best of course is don't realize of aging, you'll be a lucky one then)
But as a (not) normal teenager, this feeling will be killed and buried by my strong indifference in exactly 48 minutes. So I'm not worried at all : D
Said. Tanoshi n da!!
I didn't mean to sound neither negative nor pessimistic. I just realized how fucking nasty is growing old is. I know it's inevitable to fight against it or even think about but yesterday was my 19th birthday and I felt so depressed. One more year and the 2 will heavily kick my ass. Pitiful. In 10 years I'll be 29, that WILL be horrible.
As I already said, let's keep the pessimistic feeling away from here. I should be happy,no, I MUST be happy. This is my special day and it'll be over in 53 minutes. Just 24 hours of happiness (well, not always) I think it's not fair but it's not me who have the power to chose.
I wanted to warn you all (not really, just the ones younger than me) don't get nervous, don't even think about your age, just enjoy the moment. Yes, it's a topic, but it's a nice topic isn't it? Stay away from bad feelings and the worst thing could ever happen to you is realizing that u can do SHIT to stop it (the best of course is don't realize of aging, you'll be a lucky one then)
But as a (not) normal teenager, this feeling will be killed and buried by my strong indifference in exactly 48 minutes. So I'm not worried at all : D
Said. Tanoshi n da!!
2 comments:
Et ralles massa noiet.
Deixa de pensar tant i sigues feliç.
Un petó, i feliç aniversari.
un amic meu m'ha dit q et digui q miris "Soy un cyborg", q t'agradaria!
Un petó, desaparegut
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